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| If you are foolish enough to go out and look for love, you probably deserve what coming to ya. | | |
| I've lost what respect I had left.
It just sounds more real when I say it out loud.
Let's not kid ourselves, come back when its finally over and you a complete mess.
If its not too late we might be able to build back the friendship you've so carelessly discarded.
Don't say I didn't warn you. On a happier note: one's loss is another's gain.
You make me =] | | |
| If you thought it was over, you truly are mistaken. I've only changed my view and not care anymore, something about it being the right thing to do. I need to remember that everyone needs to learn from their OWN mistakes and not of others. Who knows, maybe in some freak of nature way hes the best for you. It's not in my place to decide. I just shake my head now and wonder what are some of the things we are going to say a year down the road from now. Im done. On another note... Im a Bitch.
I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way -Meredith Brooks Im at a lost for words when someone asks me what we are. Damn you.
But im secretly loving it | | |
| we've been at each others throat for the past couple of weeks. but we've always been? i dont know why its different now. mayhap im letting my feelings get in the way. or that i believe in something thats not there? but anyway its finally ending. i dont know if i should be happy relieved and looking forward to be free again. or sad that it is finally ending. pfft listen to me- there was nothing there in the first place! but you made it feel like it did and i was so damn happy. i dont know hwat you're thinking. i never do! but i can see it in your eyes when you see me now, like you see it in mines. i could pretend like im alright around you and everything is the same as before. i coulldd... or i could take this opportunity to hate you and end this. which is what im trying to do. so for your sake and my own lets hope i go through with it | | |
| i was distracted for a good hour by the cute trainer at fitness world. he had the cutest smile and sense of humour and we both busted a gut just laughin at each other. but then i left and everything went back to normal again. thinking about him. thinking about us. thinking about me. thinking about work... and back to the same ol' routine i go. habits are hard to break. especially ones you've been doing for a while. name: Kim Vo. Gibbler.
age: 19... 20
height: 5 feet 4 inches
ideal weight: 125
actual weight:142.6 (and it shows..sigh..)
currently feeling: exhausted.but wired.
currently talking to: wangster on msn, myself, sister while she watches "shes the man" for the x-th time
currently wanting: to curl up in bed and turn the LIGHTS OUT! Lose 5 pounds in the next week and half. Stop snoring by the 2nd week. STOP WANTING and actually DOING.
status: its complicated. because i make it complicated. because im a girl and i want to. butImisshimandIdontknowwhyonlytoputmyselfthroughthishorriblecycleagain.
life is good but boring. something i could change if i wasnt so damn lazy. went camping about a week ago and that too was a nice distraction/change to my daily routine. but when i slept or daydreamed he/they would come back and terrorize me. im getting better at it though.
well appparently not if im still talking about it.
stop it!
shit i gotta go to the bank tmr!
right. when my mind starts jumping around like this i know its time to hit the sack.
lets eat an apple tomroow instead of a banana. spice things up! all in a days work.
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